Friday, 11 July 2025

The Dragon-Dreaming

I haven't posted recently, because I have been writing a fantasy novel featuring Merlin. The idea came to me while travelling in Arizona at the end of March.  Here is a chapter I recently wrote: 

 

CHAPTER NINETEEN The Dragon-Dreaming

Winterfire rolled through the deep blue vault, a carpet of white cloud far below him, the sun huge and red on the horizon. His favourite game: chasing the sunset. Small hands were touching his scales, caressing them. That was nice. He did a back-flip for the sheer pleasure of it, and swooped up to find the sun had won the game.

Now the sun was directly above, and Winterfire stared directly at his old friend, as only dragons can, while he continued to roll high in the sky. Breakfast. Chasing the midday sun, his second favourite game. The sun that stoked his fires, built the reserves of cold truth-seeking flame.

There were the little hands again, stroking. And tickling. Now there were claps of thunder and bursts of coloured lights.

The hill at Fenny Castle shook slightly. It was night-time, and the surrounding levels were silent. The lights of Glastonbury shone in the distance. Earth. A distant memory stirred. A sense of urgency to visit something forgotten. The little caring hands became more insistent. The hill shook again.

Winterfire awoke for the first time in 1600 years. A full-sized dragon reared up from the depths of the hill and paraded itself atop Fenny Castle. At least, for those with eyes to see. And he was angry. This had been no natural sleep. He could feel the enchantment falling away in wisps about him. Morgaine. With a mighty thrust of his back legs, and a single beat of his wings, he was airborne. He soared upward and circled the skies above, breathing fire indiscriminately, roaring his rage. He was the power in the land, and he had been neutered by that woman.


The fairies were in his mind, speaking. It was a close-run thing, they were saying. We kept you here. Winterfire collected himself. The other Dragons of Avalon, what about them? Why wouldn’t she have glamoured and obliviated them also?

“We’re coming too,” he heard the fairies say. Winterfire swept down to the hill, and a multitude of fairy beings glimmered onto his back. He shot up at speed, and then glided the few miles to Glastonbury Tor. It was in a spirit of play, serious as the mission was. The fairies, who came in all sizes, from a few inches to ten feet high, could have simply wished themselves at the Tor. Winterfire’s trajectory too was driven as much by his intention as by his wings. They all lived close to the dreaming, they flashed in and out of the human world, and as such the normal rules of the possible were softened.

He landed on the summit of the Tor, and was startled to see the ruins of a church, only its tower remaining. He realised at that moment that he must have been gone a long, long time. And that the Dragons within the hill might be too far gone into the dreaming to return.

“The church and the people drove us away too,” said the fairies, who spoke as with one mind. “We kept a low profile after the church was built. It was the modern tourists who finally did for us. We’ve been worried about the Dragons for some time.”

Winterfire felt himself into the mound. Their sleep was very deep. It could go either way. They hadn’t been tended by the fairies in the way that he had. Three of them, each in their own cavern deep under the earth. There was a point in the sleep of Dragons beyond which they did not return to this world. Humans had always been prone to deny the dreaming, to see this world and nothing else. There were always those amongst the fairies who said why bother, why struggle to remain, because the humans did not even pay lip service any more?

The breathing of the Dragons was deep and expansive in the Otherworld, but barely perceptible in this world. They would not wake quickly, as he had, if they awoke at all.

Rosewing, who trailed beauty wherever she flew. Earthtreader, the most readily visible to humans, who would be easiest to bring back. And Phoenix, whose fire both destroyed and laid the seeds of renewal.

A lively breeze blew across the top of the Tor, funnelled by the church tower. The fairies leaped in the air, letting it carry them. Winterfire meanwhile was moving deep within the hill, calling the fairies down as he did so.

Many hands were soon tending to the sleeping dragons, as Winterfire entered their dreamings, which coalesced and fell away from each other, in rhythm with their shallow breathings.

Earthtreader was deep within a live volcano, flowing lazily with the lava, joyfully anticipating the next eruption, which would project him high into the sky above. Winterfire joined him, floating alongside in the cauldron of molten rock. Their minds touched, as he felt the fairy hands all about, urging the sleeping Dragon back to this world. Winterfire dreamed himself deep within the earth below, down to its molten core, stoking and goading it. Already there was a stirring within Earth-treader’s mind as he felt the touch of Winterfire’s. The liquid earth boiled and roiled from its very depths, while Winterfire continued to stoke it. The pressure grew and grew until it could no longer contain itself, and a massive wave surged upwards. The explosion was massive, a super-volcano. Winterfire reminded himself that this was the dreaming, where all things were possible, and to keep the connection with Earthtreader.

The sheer size of the explosion, far greater than he had anticipated, shocked Earthtreader out of his deep forever dream, towards the mind of Winterfire and into wakefulness.

“It was Morgaine,” said Winterfire. “Welcome back. You’ve been gone for 1600 years. We need to wake Phoenix and Rosewing. If it’s not too late.”

Earthtreader was slow to anger, unlike Winterfire. That would come later. He had a job to do. As the most present to this world, he would be most effective at drawing the other two dragons out of their much deeper dreamings.

Phoenix would be the easier case, albeit still very tricky. Earthtreader dived into her mind and her dreaming, where she spent her days and nights guarding a vast pile of dragon-gold. The fairies were already there, skipping over the hoard, picking up nuggets of it and pretending to run off with them. This was beginning to irk Phoenix, who had been sleeping the peaceful sleep of ages, gradually merging with the gold. There was already a golden sheen to her scales. Once the merging was complete, she would be lost to this world.

“It’s not yours,” whispered Earthtreader, mind to mind. “It can’t be yours. These are the riches you reveal with your fire. Remember the people, the people you destroy and renew. The world needs you.”

He felt his words land in Phoenix’s mind, but she continued to dream, to relish her hoard. Her sleep was, however, disturbed at the edges. She fretted at the thieving fairies, while staring blankly at the mind of Earthtreader, unable to entirely ignore it.

“You’ve been enchanted,” said Earthtreader more forcibly, “there is another world you have forgotten. Come with me.”

Phoenix had always been partial to Earthtreader, and her mind began to reach towards him, despite herself. She loved the dream she was in, she didn’t want it to end, not ever. Earthtreader felt the link was now strong enough for something more drastic. He joined her fully in the dream, and disappeared the gold. Phoenix brought it back, and Earthtreader disappeared it again. A tussle ensued, in which their minds drew closer together, while flashes of wakefulness glanced across Phoenix’s dragon mind. Earthtreader was gaining the upper hand, and pressed home his advantage. He was not up against the true dreaming, which would have been a more equal struggle, but the enchantment wrought by Morgaine, which he had himself already broken.

The dream gold was now gone. Earthtreader was holding it, as it were, behind his back, refusing to return it. Phoenix stared at him, shocked and confused, but realisation was slowly dawning. When it happened, it was very quick. She reared up and blasted flame over the remaining presence of the dream gold, that had been conjured up by Morgaine to entrap her. And with it her renewed life in this world began.

There was just Rosewing left in the enchantment. The fairies were busy caressing her, but none save Phoenix could detect her breathing. They were all able to enter her Otherworld, a canvas of spectacular yet subtle colours that were unknown in this world, where they drank in the beauty that surrounded and infused her. Rosewing seemed to entirely belong in this world. Phoenix, as another female, was able to move closest to her essence. She knew it would be touch and go. It was certainly not going to be a quick awakening, as it had been for herself and the other dragons.

Phoenix breathed the full force of her fire, stoked by the beauty of Rosewing’s world, over the sleeping dragon. This was not the brutal act it seemed, for dragons feed on each other’s fire. Within that fire fell a carpet of flower seeds, which as they unfurled would attract Rosewing’s gaze, drawing her into the beauty of this world. But it would take time, if indeed this was any longer possible. It was a sad, sobering moment. Dragon and fairy tears fell on Rosewing’s scales. There was love as well as beauty for her here, if any remembrance was to stir, if the memory itself of this world had not entirely vanished.

It was time to go. There was work to be done. The three Dragons rose as one into the night air, Earthtreader giving a mighty departing lash of his tail at the ruined church tower atop the Tor. The earth shook as it had not done for centuries, and the tower collapsed in a heap of rubble.

Monday, 17 February 2025

FAITH

At the centre of ourselves, at the centre of the Medicine Wheel, at the centre of the universe lies faith. It is the all-encompassing pillar that supports life, the world-tree on whose branches can be found the multiplicity of life. Faith is the sense of the sacred, of that which has highest value. It is the prioritising of what the Lakota call Wakan Tanka - the 'holiest of everything'. Keep that priority, and you will remain fundamentally on track.


Faith is something we have lost, that we even look down on as irrational. But you look at the faith that went into building the old churches, the huge resources and sacrifice over hundreds of years. It was deep ceremony. Sure, there was a fair bit of nonsense around it as well, and the requirement to believe in a miraculous ancient event. But the sheer power and centrality of it to people's lives is evident, and it is the normal state of affairs for humanity. 


Shamanic faith is like this: it is the sense of the sacred power within the natural world, that is its foundation, that continually dreams it into being. Life is sacred. We can give thanks for our life, just for the simple fact that we exist, many times every day.

Tuesday, 11 February 2025

A SURE FOUNDATION

Why are there 4 directions? Because we have a left and a right, a front and a behind. These are the 4 basic ways we use to orient ourselves, to know where we are. This is the foundation of the Medicine Wheel - a philosophy and a symbolism that is as profound and intricate as you like, yet rooted in everyday experience. And who is it that we are? We are made of what the world is made of. It comes to us very concretely as Sun, as Rain, as Soil and as Wind. Or Fire, Water, Earth and Air. I call them Initiation, Emotional Awakening, Incarnation and Perspective. The Directions and the Elements interweave according to which Wheel you are using. Between them they tell you who you are and where to go.

This is the beauty of indigenous ways. They are rooted not in abstract concepts, or belief in the divinity of historical figures, but in immediate, concrete experience. They therefore provide the most reliable foundation from which to live.

During the Covid lockdowns I wrote a book on the Medicine Wheel. Buy it, leave a rating on Amazon, and I will give you a free astrology reading 😀

 

Sunday, 12 January 2025

The cover of my next book, out in Dec. Actually, that's not quite true. The 1st in my fantasy trilogy, The Stolen Queen, is due out in June.

COMMUNITY
We all want community. But you're not going to find it, not if you are serious about being true to who you are. That is not what regular humanity wants, for whom belonging comes first. At best, you will have a few friends where you won't always agree, but where open discussion is still possible. Even then, such friends will come and go over the years. Maybe beyond that there are one or two friends where there is a spirit connection, like a breath of fine air, who have been sent to you, that endure, and who you know you will always cherish. But that doesn't make it easy, for the spirits still want us to learn 😎 

SHAMANISM and THE MODERN WORLD
The great project of modern shamanism is continually to reclaim the natural human, within our headlong technological trajectory. It is a difficult task, and extremely interesting. Technology is natural to humans. In some ways we know better than the world, in many ways we do not. We need to work alongside humanity, and be wary of the counter-cultural assumption that it is all corrupt. That is a self-serving cop-out, a spiritual bypass.
 
THE UNIFYING MYTH OF SHAMANISM
The unifying Christian mythology of the West collapsed because it had separated itself from the natural world. The Spirit lay elsewhere. Nature was looked down upon, the province of the beasts. But we are nothing other than the natural world, it is she who nourishes us, cares for us, ensouls us. Shamanism understands this: it is its foundational living idea. We do not have a complex mythology to replace the Christian story. But we do have this one very simple story: nature is ensouled, and we are indivisible from her. That is enough. That story is deep enough and connected enough to carry a civilisation on its shoulders, one that will not this time collapse from its internal contradictions, much as the indigenous societies never seemed to collapse for this reason.