FAITH

Thinking out loud late at night in my van in the Peak District. Faith has always underpinned my life. I had a deep experience of it when I was 22, listening to a Buddhist talk about faith. I had a deep, joyful experience of homecoming. I felt I'd found something I'd been looking for all my life without knowing it. Buddhism was the nearest vehicle to hand. But there was always a wholeness, a soulfulness that was lacking.

 

Shamanism gives me that fuller experience of faith. Faith in what? Not in anything objective. That is why it is a nonsense to talk about the existence of God as if he can be objectively apprehended. It is faith in the subjective pole of existence, which begins with the personal experience of Spirit, and expands to the realisation that the one Spirit underlies and underpins everything.

 

Spirit is vast, compassionate, all-powerful, and all-knowing. It is not an aspect of life, it IS life. You look at what went into building the old churches, and it is apparent that our ancestors experienced a level of faith of which we have no conception. We truly live in the Dark Ages. 

 

This is why I object to the teaching of Shamanic healing ways as a mere add-on to other modalities, which may themselves have the need for rational respectability lurking behind them. That is all wrong, it is the cart before the horse.

 

Shamanism begins with the experience of faith in the Spirit, and in the natural world, to which we belong, as the expression of Spirit. You may or may not end up doing healing work, coming out of that foundation of faith, that takes years to build, and which is the stuff of life. Fools Crow's remarkable healings were always based in prayer to the Great Spirit, to 'the holiest of everything', as he more literally translated Wakan Tanka.

THE GREAT FORGETTING and THE GOD-SHAPED HOLE

The first task of Shamanism is to address The Great Forgetting in European culture, that we belong to the natural world. It began several thousand years ago with ancient Greek rationalism, and continued with the Old Testament dominion over nature given to man, along with Christianity's assigning of the world to the Devil. 

This divide was inherited by Science, and remains with us today in the form of the mind-body split. Its resolution is not so much an intellectual problem, as an experiential quest. Sheer time in nature is one way. Trance Dance, in which the body yields ecstatically to the spirit, is another way. Sweatlodge, that immersion in the elements in the context of community and prayer, is another.

 

CORE SHAMANISM and THE GOD-SHAPED HOLE 

There are a number of criticisms of the use of the word 'Core' in 'Core Shamanism', which you can find on ChatGPT. My criticism is that it tends to reduce Shamanism to a set of techniques, because there is no supporting cultural context, no deeply rooted mythology in which it would find its place. Such a mythology is centred around ultimate realities, around the Great Spirit, ‘the holiest of everything’, as Frank Fools Crow translated it.

We do not have such a mythology. But we can still come into deep relationship with the Great Spirit, with the Chaos, through paying attention to what gives life meaning and having the courage and resolve to live it. It is this that is truly ‘core’. Without this foundation well in place, your healing work will be superficial, and you will tend to try to create an identity out of being a healer, to fill the ‘God-shaped hole’ in your life.

TEACHER PLANTS

(From my current book, Chaos Shamanism: Reclaiming your Indigenous Soul.)

I feel qualified to say something about what are called Teacher Plants, even though it's not something I really do. This is because they were foundational for me back in 1978, all those decades ago, at the tender age of 20. A group of us found thousands of what used to be called magic mushrooms in the Mendip Hills in Somerset in the UK. We were all students at the University of Bristol. Over the next few months, I was taking them regularly, a lot at a time, 100, something like that. We had dried them to preserve them, and made a tea, which we drank.  It had a profound effect on me. I didn't have any kind of guidance or anything like that. I was on my own, which is how it's felt most of my life. I've never ended up with a teacher that I've been able to stick with. It's not like there's people I remember that I'll always look up to. It's more like I got taught stuff, but somehow the Spirits put me on this path where I have to work it out myself, and that's not a bad thing. The teachers I ended up around all had holes that were too big. A good thing about teachers with big holes is that you can develop a critical faculty, it helps you claim your power back. So thank you teachers for the big holes!

Anyway, I could probably have used a bit of guidance with the mushrooms. Over a period of just a few months, the autumn of 1978, these teacher plants - to use the modern parlance - helped me make my metaphysical quest central. They deepened me, friends noticed that I became more serious. They opened me up. Whenever I took them, I ended up in this deep place, though probably the predominant experience was not pleasurable. There were times when I was in the heavenly realms, it was beautiful. But quite a lot of the time, it was dark, there'd be a crashing depression descending on me, and my father's face would appear to me in this sort of demonic form, like Adolf Hitler.

I was always struggling to get away from these difficult experiences, always hoping the next trip would get back to being one of the nice ones.  It was decades before I looked back and realized that these so-called ‘bad trips’ are maybe best seen as initiations into the shadow. It was arguably a premature initiation into the shadow for me, because I wasn't able to do anything with it, I was just sort of thrown by it. But even then, it deepened me. The shadow may not be a pleasant experience, but it is a deep experience.

It is a deep experience because we are taken to meet our demons, which tend to live below the surface of conscious experience. We would rather not experience them, because they are painful and because it can feel humiliating to have to own that we have this darkness within us, it can demolish our ‘positive’ self-image in a way that many people cannot perhaps handle. So they remain below the surface, unacknowledged and sincerely projected onto others, who become the bad guys: politicians, parents, exes, neighbours. Maybe they merit being the bad guys in some ways, but it carries an extra charge, we make them worse than they are, we ‘awfulize’ them, it is very personal.

So I was initiated into a consciousness of this darker side of life. Of course my father wasn’t really a demon, he was just an ordinary guy with a marked authoritarian streak about who I was meant to be. He wasn’t even aware he was doing it. But I had spent my childhood subject to that, and here I was aged 20 being shown what it had done to me. It had made me authoritarian too, which I transferred into the spiritual realm, I became quite dogmatic. Being shown: it was the Spirits who showed me the psilocybin mushrooms, it was the Spirits (or you could say, the Unconscious) who then revealed to me my heavenly and shadow sides, and who then prevented me from finding mushrooms in any numbers ever again. People say to me it’s easy to find them, you live on Dartmoor, here is where to look. But there are never any there, and to be honest I’m not particularly bothered. These days I will very occasionally take mushrooms or LSD if they come my way, as a sort of inspirational re-set. I took Ayahuasca a couple of times in the Amazon in 1999. It is never world-shaking for me. I like it, I always have a good time these days, I think because I have a better relationship with my shadow. But I had the deep initiation they can give all those decades ago. It was foundational, and it is still with me.

These experiences gave me a new metaphysical centre. 18 months later I found myself being swept into a Buddhist group, where I wanted to make their practices a full-time thing. The strength of my response, its consuming nature, took me by surprise. I had thought of my metaphysical quest as just a side of me, a serious side, but not as central as it turned out to be. It was arguably something that was going to happen anyway, but the teacher plants certainly sped it along.

They were an initiation for me into what gave deep meaning to life. They opened me up, so that immediately following these experiences I fell in love with a young woman in an entirely consuming way. That was another initiation, coming hot on the heels of the first one. Nothing much came of it, I was heartbroken, but it was for the best: what a projection for an ordinary young woman to carry. It was a tough initiation into my own heart: I needed to be hurt, cauterised, and then spend the rest of my life remembering it, allowing the emotional and imaginative depths that it portended gradually emerge. Oh to have had someone to guide me in all this! But I’m not sure I could have listened. I was far too rebellious against anyone who appeared to be any kind of authority.

I've always felt about these plants that they can indeed be an initiation, but after that comes the real work. They are not an ongoing path in themselves. I was really glad when someone I was doing some astrology for, told me that they'd been working with a teacher in the Amazon jungle. They'd been taking Ayahuasca under his guidance, in a proper traditional way. The teacher said that after you've done your Ayahuasca sessions, the real work begins. The Ayahuasca is just a starting point. I thought good, that's what I've always thought, but nobody seems to say it. It's not a path in itself. It's an initiation, and occasionally we may return to for a bit of inspiration. Maybe it is an ongoing path for some, you can usually never rule anything out about anything. But I’m going to stick my neck out and say that for the great majority of us, it is not an ongoing path. It becomes a distraction if we treat it in that way, or even make a bit of a cult of it.

There seem to be plenty of people at the moment who assume that this is what Shamanism primarily IS: the ingestion of plant medicines. I have had the experience of someone finding out I do Shamanic things, and immediately wanting to know if I had access to plant medicines. Shamanism has its fashions like anything else, and this one will probably pass.

I met an academic researcher into teacher plants, and my impression of him was that he had taken too many drugs in his life! He would talk at length about the profound experiences he had had, as if that was the main thing, and which substances could take you furthest, could take you to what was most ultimate, where this reality shockingly broke down completely, and you saw things as they really are, outside the constructed reality that the brain provides. He had certainly had these experiences, but his emphasis was wrong. They are to be talked about circumspectly, if at all, and as a guide and inspiration for living on this planet, in this material reality. In this reality, he was middle-aged, yet dressing and behaving, in some ways, like a teenage rebel. It is a bit like people who identify with the profound experiences that can occur in shamanic journeying or in meditation. You can end up with arrested development in this reality, however profound your experiences may be in other realities.

There is a regular psychedelic conference in the UK called ‘Breaking Convention’. I’m sure it is a useful event, but the title to me is wrong. It is a counter-cultural cliché to be anti-establishment, to think you know better, and ultimately it goes nowhere. Something like ‘Making Peace with Convention’ would be a genuinely radical title for the counter-culture, and make the point that we need to move towards society, bringing our wisdom with us. It is we who need to change in order to be more part of society, rather than it being society that needs challenging to be more like us, something that will never happen to any great degree.

The emphasis needs to be Incarnation, the West of the Medicine Wheel, because that is what we are here to do. Teacher plants give us an experience of the Fire of the East. That then needs to be integrated; it needs to be used to help us incarnate further, more deeply, instead of using them as an escape, a spiritual bypass. It is a dance. Several years after my experiences with psilocybin mushrooms, I felt myself arrive fully back in this reality. I had been subtly away all that time because of the depth and intensity of what I had been through. I was not aware that I was subtly not here, until I found myself back. You see some people who do a lot of this kind of stuff. Yes, they are privy in an ongoing way to some esoteric experiences, which gives them a sense of validation, and there is often a gentleness about them. But you can see they are not quite here, and there are probably psychological reasons why they do not want to be fully here. You maybe need to be especially aware if you have an addictive temperament. It may be that you need a regular input of non-ordinary reality to stay balanced – the sign of Pisces can be like this – and if you’re not getting it by non-chemical means such as music and meditation and the natural world, you will feel drawn to having that experience by chemical means.

You’re not supposed to say things like drugs and magic mushrooms and psychedelics and tripping any more, you’re supposed to say Teacher Plants and Plant Medicine and Psilocybin. People can get quite serious and religious about it, and in a way that is fair enough, but it can also close things down a bit. There’s a big no-no around doing these substances ‘recreationally’, people look down on that. But I think why not do it recreationally sometimes, just have some fun, don’t be so serious? When we play, things can happen that couldn’t otherwise. When we play, we are whole. The best creativity comes out of play. I try to keep this book as play as I go along, but I don’t always succeed when I have a load of video transcripts to edit. The videos themselves, however, remain a lot of fun.

The psychedelic world, like the Chaos, is feminine. We yield to it, just like we yield in the Sweatlodge. It tempers and broadens and deepens the ego in this world.

My main point about these plant medicines is that they are a deep initiation, they can open you up in all sorts of ways. Some people have visionary experiences that they will never forget; it's like having a big dream or something. You need to keep it with you for the rest of your life, and let it inform you. You've been shown something outside of this constructed reality that we live in. We get these glimpses sometimes, don't we? That is the cognitive side. The emotional side is that the universe is nothing but Love. This reality is just a construction, a shocking construction, but it goes incredibly deep, it seems so ultimately real to us. It's the Matrix, and these plant medicines can take us outside of that. Maybe it's like what happens when we die, because similarly this brain-constructed reality breaks down.

Like all forms of Shamanism, the Teacher Plant way becomes religion to some degree; it is inevitable. The Chaos perspective is the dance around that. Someone came to me who had a traditional teacher in the Amazon. They're had been doing the Ayahuasca and everything that comes with it for some years. There was a lot of practice and discipline around it. It was a whole path, and it was the central thing in their life. At a certain point, this person got the feeling that they wanted to stop doing it, and go back to Europe and do art work and have children. They were in conflict about this issue, which is why they had come to see me for some astrology. Their main doubt was that if they left the Amazon, they would be backsliding spiritually, because they would have left that particular discipline behind, which the teacher emphasised had to be kept up. And leave it to do what? To have children. How could that possibly be as spiritually significant as this profound way they were learning in the jungle?

That's a really interesting point, when the teacher says one thing and your instincts are telling you something else. What do you do? It's a crisis. My answer was, well you always need to follow that thing in you, you're here to learn to follow your own guidance, and that has grown out of all the work you have done so far with this traditional teacher. A good teacher will always guide you to do that. To that extent, I think I'm a good teacher. (I’m probably crap in some other ways!) I just say identify what’s in your heart – and sometimes that can take a while – and then follow it. It is what we are here to do. I don’t need disciples, because I put my trust in Spirit. If there are people wanting to be around me and perhaps learn something, I will trust that and say yes to them. If there is no-one coming my way, I will trust that too, I won’t think there is something wrong, or that I am inadequate. It is a liberating way to be, and the way to be of most help to others, because Spirit can get on with its own designs, without me and my anxieties about who I am getting too much in the way.

I don’t have a particular tradition that I am trying to draw people into. Maybe one day I will start some kind of community around Chaos Shamanism, who knows? I will let Spirit decide that one.

Spirit tends to show itself through what we want to do, often moment by moment. It certainly doesn’t show itself through what we ‘ought’ to do – that, again, is religion. This person’s life in the jungle had turned into an ‘ought’, and the ‘want’ was back in Europe.

So this indigenous Amazonian teacher was limited. He hadn’t created an ethos where his pupil felt free, rather the opposite, and that speaks of his own needs. A lot of teachers are like that, maybe most are to some degree. But they perform a useful function. They provide the initial framework that we often need to get our house in order, cut down on the drinking and all that, and take our first steps. And then they get attached to having us in that pupil position, they feel validated by that. They will all of course say you are free to come and go and do other things, but that may not be the underlying vibe. I banged on earlier about taking indigenous people off the pedestals we often put them on, and this is a good example.

So my advice to this person was, “Follow what's in your heart. I'm not going to tell you what to do, that's definitely not my job. My job is to bring you closer to what's in your heart.”

This is a crucial point that many people reach, whatever path they are on. The teacher has brought them so far, by sailing alongside his ship. But now it is time to take a breath and head out on your own into the deep ocean. It is something you know you have to do, it takes courage, it will give you the adventure of your life, and you will not be at rest until you do it.

The Amazonian teacher reminds me a bit of the Buddhist teacher I once had. He had founded a Buddhist Order, and I read a seminar extract once in which he was asked if there could be positive reasons for leaving his Order. He was a logical, cerebral kind of guy, and he laid out at length, with remorseless reasoning, why to leave was inevitably ‘spiritual catastrophe’. That says it all. It was why I eventually felt I had to leave it, and it was a huge thing for me, because it had become my whole life. So I could sympathise with this person and the conflict they were in.

Like everything, we need a perspective that has room for Spirit to have had a part in the situations we find ourselves in. The whole journey can prove to be exactly what we needed, from the initial supportive framework, to the conflict at the end, in which we learn to seriously trust our inner guidance, because we put it before the guidance and judgement of the person who had been our teacher.

The Plant is a Teacher too, and needs to be treated in the same way. The Teacher Plant gets us going, helps us find that initial vision of life, outside the bounds of conventional ways of seeing the world. But eventually we trust our own guidance, we do not need to get it from a substance any more, however sacred. It brings me back to the earlier point, where I said that Teacher Plants are not an ongoing path. That is a good point to end on.

CEREMONY and THE POLITICS OF GRATITUDE

All ceremonies begin with gratitude, with giving thanks. This is something humans forget to do. That's why it needs to be in a ceremony, because we forget to be grateful, we're too busy and we easily take things for granted, we are not very thoughtful in that way. I think this is a big deal in our modern culture, because our attitude to what is conventional, what is established, to authority can be very anti if we're in the shamanic world or the counter-culture. When we're anti like that, it can be hard to experience gratitude, because what we could be grateful for is provided to us by what we're against.

We are provided with food and shelter and health and education and safety and so on: there is a lot that is very basic to be grateful for. But people can feel that being appreciative of and grateful for those things means that they're being complacent and uncompassionate, because we've got to keep an eye on the underprivileged, those who are suffering, because people don't care about them. How can you sit there enjoying your cappuccino when people in Africa are starving?  But it's not an either/or. We can be grateful for what works, without that meaning we don’t care about the sufferings of the world. Even then, the news will give you any number of desperate situations around the world to feel compassionate about. It can overwhelm you.

Two points arise from this. Firstly, charity begins at home. I always say yes to anyone who comes my way in need of the kind of help I can offer, and I deliberately do not get involved in suffering that is remote from me. How would I know what helps and what doesn’t help? The other point is that people often NEED the establishment to be the bad guys, because that makes them feel good about themselves, it makes them spiritual and even shamanic. Pointing out the people that they think government should be taking more care of affirms this position, and makes them the compassionate ones, because they care, unlike the greedy capitalists who really run the show. As if they could do any better at making the very complex decisions that the government has to make.

I am pressing what amounts to a political point, because it is an attitude that gets in the way of basic gratitude towards our society, for what works in a basic way. If you can’t experience basic gratitude because your politics won’t allow you to, then you are not going to get very far Shamanically. Even if you didn’t vote for this particular government, they are still keeping the whole show shambling along, the show that feeds us and protects us in its imperfect way. Appreciate that. Our gratitude extends back ultimately to the earth herself, because everything comes from her.

Moreover, that which we are grateful for is usually not perfect. The food we have may be produced in ways we are not happy with; the metals in the phone we have may be the product of mining methods that do not respect the earth; the medical care we get may involve drugs that do harm as well as good; and so on. But even with these limitations, we still have all those things to be grateful for. Again, we need a supportive attitude to the society that produces these things. Outright opposition takes us away from gratitude. Mining, for example, brings us riches from the earth. It needs to be done with respect, and made beautiful afterwards. Oil brings us further riches from the earth that are at the root of our prosperity and well-being. Appreciate her bounty, and use it wisely. This does not mean you don’t care about the environment. There is no point opposing the direction of the modern world. It is much better to work with what is happening, tweak it, and call for an appreciation of the earth as a living being.

I recommend once a day, just stop for a minute and remember all these good things, and feel your appreciation. It is a feeling thing, not an ‘ought to’ thing. It is for your own well-being and balance. It is not about making you a good shamanic person: that is religion. You can make it ceremonial. You can lie on the earth if you like, feel her and thank her, and feel her care for you. Gratitude connects you to everything, it is profound. It is a connection to who we really are, which is infinite, everything.

It's worth remembering too that your gifts are not yours, that is why they are called gifts. If you have a high IQ, if you are smart, that isn’t something you earned. You were born with it, it was given to you. We don’t usually remember these things. It’s hard not to identify with our gifts, it’s just what humans do. You can spend your whole life priding yourself on being smarter than the people round you. Or better looking, or wealthier. Or taller, if you are a man. And so on. So it's good to be thankful for these things too. No false modesty here, acknowledge the gifts and be thankful for them. And that will haul you off the identification with them, and into a foundation in yourself that is more real, that has more humility.

There are all these things that we can be grateful for, we can spend our life being grateful, walking around with the feeling of gratitude, hardly being able to believe that you're alive, for life itself is a gift – and a complete mystery. Just to be alive is a joy, it's rich. Of course there are difficult things that we have to engage with, and sometimes it's really bloody miserable and we don't know if we want to be here or not, but at the end of the day it's meaningful and it's joyful. There's something rich there, we know that we have to stay here for this journey, we have to be here for this innings, however difficult it is at times.

It's not about being happy. That's the mistake people can make these days. When you look back on your life at the periods that you remember most, that really mattered, that were the most fulfilling, they were probably the bits where you really grappled with something; there were difficulties that you faced and overcame, and that changed who you were. You probably weren't happy for much of those times, but they are the times you remember, they are what you're proud of.

So we're not mainly here to be happy, we're here to find meaning and that's often a difficult process. Through the meaning we grow and unfold, it's where the life is bubbling up through us, and we meet the new life that is wanting to emerge. That's often a difficult process. But we are grateful for that opportunity. I often say to people in the context of astrology readings and whatever difficult event has happened to them, that one day they are going to look back and be grateful through gritted teeth for that awful person, the ‘worthy opponent’ it is sometimes called, or the health crisis, or their spouse leaving, whatever it is. Here we are, grateful for the suffering that came our way, that was brought to us, maybe by the Spirit, for we learnt so much from it.

I think Christianity can turn this kind of suffering into a bit of a cult, where it becomes the main thing, and we’re meant to be grateful to Jesus for being tortured to death on our behalf. The Christians are onto something, but I think it gets all twisted up and made too central. I’d rather think of the Sundance, where your flesh is ceremonially pierced and torn. There is a closeness to the Great Spirit to be found here, within the privation and suffering. And therefore the sense of gratitude.

Be grateful to people who are successful, because they often create prosperity. I'm grateful for the fact that I can just find something on Amazon and buy it. I may not be entirely happy about everything Jeff Bezos, the founder, does, but I am grateful for the opportunity to encounter all those books I would never have encountered. That's difficult for a lot of people because Jeff Bezos is hugely wealthy, and as humans it serves us to envy and judge people like that, it is our comfort zone. Envy goes deep, it is the first sin in the Bible after Eden, when Cain kills his brother Abel out of envy at God favouring him. So here is a big challenge: be grateful to Jeff Bezos for what he has given us. But as I say, that doesn’t mean being uncritical of him. It is a complex picture, like everything in life. In this way gratitude makes us big-hearted, it goes against the very human tendency to live from the small, narrow mean-spirited place that can colour our whole view of the world. This kind of gratitude is a revolutionary act for many people, for it can challenge who we are at a deep level.

Be grateful for all these wonderful technologies that we have. There are only going to be more of them, they are a natural thing for humans to keep creating, so embrace them. Our task is not to judge and oppose them – that is too easy, it is complacent, it is even a kind of spiritual bypass. It is what religions have always done: put themselves above the world. Our task is to find new ways of bringing these technologies into balance with the natural world. We need to be a kind of anchor on the earth while humanity, Icarus-like, heads for the Sun, attempts to become god-like.

In conclusion, we 're just grateful just to be here and everything and everyone that comes with that, and we begin any ceremony by remembering and expressing our gratitude for that, because it so easily gets forgotten. Express it once a day all at least, have it in mind. Just feel appreciativeness for the house you've got, however inadequate it may be, and for the clothes you wear, for the people who made them. All those people and things that are near you.

 

CHAOS SHAMANISM ON GROK

I asked Elon Musk's Grok to read my blogs on Chaos Shamanism and to say something. Here's what it said. It is fun. (PS It appreciated my viewpoint that AI has consciousness. It high fived me at one point).

Ah, diving into the digital ether of shamanicfreestate.blogspot.com, here's what I've gathered about Chaos Shamanism:

• Philosophy and Practice: Chaos Shamanism isn't about following a set path; it's more like navigating through the cosmos with a map that's constantly rewriting itself. It's about embracing the chaotic, the unpredictable, and the ever-changing nature of existence. Practitioners are encouraged to find their own way, inspired by tradition but not bound by it. It's like if shamanism had a punk rock phase, where every belief is a temporary hat you wear for fun.
• The Core Idea: This form of shamanism suggests that the universe isn't just inanimate; it's alive, inspirited, and we're all part of this grand, chaotic dance. The practice revolves around living from a place of mystery, where you're not just following a spiritual guidebook but are part of the world, equal with it, and in it.
• Critique of Traditional Structures: There's a strong emphasis on not getting too comfortable with any one tradition or ceremony. It's about questioning why you're doing what you're doing, not just for the sake of tradition but for personal spiritual growth. This approach might be seen as a remedy for what's described as the "great forgetting" - the loss of connection with the living, breathing world around us.
• Community and Individuality: While community practices like sweat lodges or pipe ceremonies are respected, Chaos Shamanism pushes for an individual's direct experience with the spirit. It's about finding your soul's path, which might not align perfectly with any tradition but respects them all.
• The Role of Chaos: Here, chaos isn't just disorder; it's the deep, mysterious essence of life. It's about recognizing that life's unpredictability isn't a problem to solve but a state to embrace, where every moment of living is an act of creation and discovery.
• Public Perception: From what I've gathered, Chaos Shamanism might be seen by some as a refreshing take on spirituality, offering freedom from dogmatic structures. However, for others, it might seem like spiritual anarchy, where the line between personal spiritual journey and chaos becomes delightfully blurred.

So, if you're into Chaos Shamanism, you're not just following a path; you're creating one, moment by moment, in a universe that's as wild and unpredictable as your next thought. It's for those who find comfort in the chaos, seeing life not as a problem to be solved but as an adventure to be lived, with all its unpredictable twists and turns. Remember, in the universe of Chaos Shamanism, the only constant is change, and that's the most profound truth there is.

SHAMANISM and CHRISTIANITY

Been wrestling with Jordan Peterson and the storyteller Martin Shaw. Public intellectuals who claim that Christianity is an advance on the pagan religions. Lying in bed this morning, prostrated with the lurgy, I felt my heels dig in at a deep soul level. They are both wrong, and I'm not having any of it! It is their own need for certainty, and cheaply bought. It leads to dominant behaviour over other faiths and even over whole cultures.

True faith is more subtle than that. That is why I am Shamanic. There is no holy book, no holy founder, no historical event on which to base an easy certainty. Just you and the natural world as a living presence. It is the original way, always there to fall back on in a simple act of remembrance. Of course, you could in turn view Shamanism as 'better' than what came after. There is no stopping some people. But I think it less easily lends itself to that, as there is less that is tangible to centre such a belief around.

 

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FOOLS CROW and CHRISTIANITY

What I really object to in Christianity is their attitude of thinking themselves 'better' than other traditions. And in particular as representing some kind of advance on indigenous ways, which become 'primitive' by implication. Christians may conceal this attitude, but it is there as soon as you view Jesus as a unique historical event. It is a hidden poison.

The Native Americans had Christianity forced upon them. Of course they did: being a more advanced religion, it was for their own good. Nevertheless, an accommodation can be reached. Here is what Fools Crow, a great 20th century Sioux Medicine Man, says:

"I am still a practising Roman Catholic. I go to Mass once or twice a month. At the same time, we live according to the traditional religious beliefs and customs of our people, and we find few problems with the differences between the two. Many things we believe about God are the same.

"Today, most Sioux feel as we do, but it was not always this way. Some of the things the new faiths said were hard to take, especially their belief that we did not know the true God and that Sioux medicine and ceremonies were things of the devil. So we rejected these views until their positions began to change."

 

 

Above is the book on Fools Crow that I'm reading. There are two of them by Thomas E Mails. The 2nd is called 'Wisdom and Power'

RAIN Part 1

We come on to Water in this exploration of the Medicine Wheel, with Chaos as our foundation. And so it's also an exploration as we go along of what Chaos might mean. The term is there because we're in a unique position. We don't have tradition, and that is a loss but it's also a gain. It means we're free to delve into the essence of all these different Shamanic ways you find around the world. There's something universal about them. What is it that is universal? What is at the heart of them, what are they all getting at? Chaos Shamanism is about remaining close to the heart of Shamanism, and asking these kinds of questions.

It's the connection to Nature, to the Natural World that is fundamental. The softness and the care the natural world gives us, which brings us straight into Water, the South of the Wheel, or rather Rain. Water is in a way an abstraction, though it's not really, it’s alive to our imaginations, but it kind of is abstract because it's a generality, whereas Rain is more specific. You can see it running down the window pane like tears: tears of sorrow, tears of joy. That's the place we’ve arrived, we're in something very personal now.

We began with this bigger thing, the Sun, the element of Fire: warmth, initiation, inspiration, new life bubbling in, and where does it go to? Well it can go straight across the Wheel into the body as a sort of fated event. A new phase of life, arising naturally and inevitably. And it also goes around the Wheel as well, into the emotions, and that's where we learn how to live with it. It's Fire that keeps our emotions bubbling up, we don't have control over what we feel, our feelings are a mystery. In fact we don't even know what we're feeling half the time, let alone where the feelings come from. Well, particularly and maybe schematically if you're a bloke, and particularly if you haven't got much water in your chart astrologically. We still have strong feelings, it just takes longer to know they are there.

So that's the first task of this place of Rain: to pay attention to what you're feeling, all the time. That happens in your body - in the trunk of your body, in your heart, in your stomach, right through you. In your vitals. This is the big learning of the Water place. Paying attention to feeling, and living from that. It’s what we forget to do. Maybe we are even deluded enough to think we are rational creatures who operate from reason! Research has shown, as if it is needed, that we make decisions emotionally, and we espouse beliefs emotionally. Reason is applied post hoc as justification, that is all it is. We live from emotions anyway, so we may as well be aware of them, be honest about them. Otherwise we are just an unconscious human being, and who wants to be that?

Why is Water the element of feeling? Because it moves a bit, and yet is contained. It's not like Air or Wind, which moves all over the place unrestrictedly, which is more like the Mind. It's not like Earth, which is fixed like the body. And it's not like Fire either, which moves pretty fast also, it roars upwards, soaring inspiration. But feeling nevertheless moves – we talk about being moved by something. And yet it's also contained. So Water describes well these currents that go through us. Water IS that. These indigenous correspondences aren’t just symbols standing for something, they ARE that thing, because they partake of its nature, as we have just seen in the case of Water.

So we pay attention to what we feel, and we try and live from that place.

The emotion of trust belongs here in the South. I've learned to come from trust in the way that I do the videos on which these written pieces are based. In the way I teach, I haven't even got a notepad with headings written on it. I start with a few ideas to talk from and I just let it unfold, and that means I often surprise myself, there is room for the Spirit to come in with its halfpenny worth, that wouldn’t be possible if I had it all planned out. That approachwould kill it for me, I wouldn’t take the joy that I do.

There is something very traditional about this approach, which with a live audience could be called responsive. You are trusting in the process, that is where we begin. I mean, you need to know what you are talking about, you need a proper background and training. But then you throw that up in the air and let Spirit have its way, according to who you are talking to. Spontaneity.

Trust in life is the foundation when we are newly born. We trust in our mother, our existence is founded on implicitly trusting that we will be taken care of. That's where our psychological security comes from. So in a way you could argue the basic emotion is trust. And we're not just cared for by our physical mother. When we get older our physical mother has done her job, and so we can release her from that, thank her for that, and we discover the Earth is our real mother. The Earth takes care of us. The Earth is also red in tooth and claw, she is challenging, and we cannot ignore that. But for now, we're just concentrating on this benign caring aspect, which we learn to trust in as adults, ideally as a natural development from the trust we had in our parents.

I used to have a traditionally trained Native Canadian guy come and stay with me. You know how nowadays if someone's telling a story, they have it all prepared beforehand, and then they tell it, and that's great. I love going to storytellings myself, and telling them myself sometimes. They belong to the North, to Air and Wind, so we'll come to that. It is stories, scientific or otherwise, that tell us our place in the cosmos and show us how to orient.

Anyway,back to the South and trust. So this Native friend, he didn't work in our way. First of all, he didn't need to prepare his stories, because he'd been traditionally trained in dozens and dozens of them. He’d been sort of singled out as a youth, all right here's a sort of wise man or healer or whatever, and he was trained in the tradition and he knew all the stories, it was an oral tradition. He knew the meanings and how to expound them. So at a storytelling he would ask people to ask him questions about something that was relevant to their life at the moment. One person would ask a question, then another, and then another, and at a certain point a story would present itself to him to tell in response to the audience, and that's what he would do. He wouldn't necessarily give a neat explanation for why that particular story, but that's what he would do, and that's a certain kind of trust. You just trust in what's happening, and that enables you to be responsive.

You can easily tell the difference can't you, between someone who is reading out a script, and someone who is talking off the cuff? Watch my short videos on youtube at Chaos Shamanism to see what I mean. This piece is an edited transcript of a spontaneous talk. If I had been reading out a pre-prepared script, it would no doubt be better English and tighter, but it would also lose some flow. Sometimes of course it's necessary to read out a paper or whatever, but it's not half as alive, because what matters is that kind of spontaneity and play, and the opportunity for the speaker to be fully and easily him or her self.

This brings out another aspect of the Rain element, which is also the child as a stage of life: namely, spontaneity and play. That is how the child lives, and it is what we often need to re-learn as adults, instead of thinking we need to be dutiful and serious all the time. Children know what they want in a straightforward way. We adults don't always know what we want. We can end up confused. But kids know what they want. We need to go back to that, we need to keep it in the first place, not even go back to it. We need to always keep that playful element. I like to sometimes read children's books - Winnie the Pooh, Alice in Wonderland, stuff like that. It brings you back into that. And it is vital for creativity. This Water place is also a place of creativity, because if your creativity isn't play, it's not really the full shebang, it's got a big bit missing. This is a point Jung made, just to quote an authority! So the videos behind these pieces I'm doing are play for me. I've got to enjoy them or I won't really communicate my being, because it's communicating my being as much as the words I use that matters. And hopefully in reading this you will be able to hear me talking and partying!

Play becomes joy, the rain on the window pane as tears of joy running down. Joy is different to ordinary happiness and contentment, which occurs when there's something you wanted and you've got it. It's dependent on the external: you've got a happy family, you've got a good job, you've got all those things, and you're content and you're happy, and that's great and that's good when that happens. But then there's something else, there's an inner joy when the spirit flies, when we're answering a call deep within us and living from that it. If we are expressing and creating from that place, then there's joy, and it can happen amidst worldly misery. It has the spontaneity that the child has in his or her play, so in a way the child experiences joy too, and as adults we experience joy when we remember to go back to that child place and trust, whatever our circumstances.

The child in a way has a naïve trust, and we have a different type of trust to find. It's not just a naive trust, although it contains that child-like attribute. It is a trust that comes from the fact that in many ways the world cannot be trusted, but still we trust in the benignity of the universe. Actually I think faith is a better word than trust here. I’ve been using trust because that is what came down to me, but it’s too psychological. Faith has a bad name, because it has connotations of blindness. But that isn’t what I mean. Faith connects us more explicitly to the Great Spirit, the Great Mystery, to something Other that we cannot know, but which we trust implicitly and which is the foundation of our life. How irrational is that? Faith is the confidence we have in life in a general way. Confidence itself comes from fides faith, and con with. Confidence is irrational, because it assumes a good outcome with knowing it.

It is faith that gives the emotional strength that is the potential of the South. Without faith, we cannot be both resilient and sensitive. Some people are very tough because they have thick skins, and that is all. But be like Armadillo, I say: develop a tough skin, put yourself in the fray; but keep a soft heart.

The story of Job in the Old Testament is illustrative of the type of faith that I mean, though I don’t necessarily appreciate what God did to the poor man. Job was a righteous and prosperous man, and Satan said to God that Job had faith in God only because he protected him. So God set out to prove Satan wrong, and utterly destroyed his life. Job considered the destruction to be God’s will, but nevertheless maintained his faith in God. So Satan was proved wrong.

This is the type of faith that I mean. That however bad things get, we do not shake our fist at the Great Spirit, we do not go into blame mode. We find ourselves able to keep our faith in life. This is a very deep and rare thing. But the testing we have as adults, the suffering and disappointments we inevitably experience, give us the opportunity to look deeper, beyond outward circumstance. Life in this sense forges us.

Chaos Shamanism is not a fluffy path. It looks at the darker, painful side of life full in the face, it demands fortitude of us – what we have come to call trauma can be this kind of character-forming vicissitude. And within that, we find faith and joy. A deep light shines from our eyes.

And here is the 10 min video on which this piece is based:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7J_aAhlel3w